Living with the Enemy

It’s nice to think that those nearest to us are trustworthy. Maybe we believe that the “bad guys” are the faceless, the “other” people who roam the streets who we know nothing about. We need to believe that there is a lot of good surrounding us. But when people continously talk negative and maybe even wish misfortunate to those they are “close” to, you have to just stop and wonder. Some people, even the ones near, rejoice in your troubles. And you know what? That’s okay…

I can’t be bothered to be poisoned with others negativity. I just have to keep it moving. I am destined for greatness. God will handle my troubles.

Homeless

I wrote this not long ago. It was inspired by some pictures I saw of the homeless in my city.

 

Homeless

What do you do when you have no shelter to call your own?

Where privacy, security and even warm food all seem like forgotten privileges of the past?

What do you have left when it seems you’ve lost it all?

Faith.

Clothes lay scattered all over the pavement along with other belongings.

The old rags that adorn a makeshift bed bring little comfort during the darkness of the night. Where danger and poverty reside, a seed of faith is being nurtured.

There has to be more. One day there will be more.

Until then, seeking God and keeping faith will help.

My Mother

I wrote this for my mother.  Other than God and my son, she is my main source of love and support. Words alone can’t express how much she means to me, how lost I’d be without her – but with this I tried.

 

My Mother

I pray that I learn to build some of the qualities that my mom holds.

To love a little more and worry a little less.

 

There were times I had told her she’s always been too nice.

That some people will only take advantage and won’t appreciate her effort.

But as time passed I began to realize that it wasn’t about her being too nice,

But about Gods love pouring off her.

 

I have been able to see glimpses of the immensity of her love.

And realize how much she has always done.

She never stops working, never stops giving.

 

At some of my toughest times I look at her and I am reminded that I will get through it.

She’s a perfect example of living by Gods strength.

 

I strive to love with Gods love. To love even when hurt.

To love when betrayed. To love in the tough times and not hold grudges.

A love like that is a blessing and I witness it every day I look at my mom.

 

She is my comfort, my confident, my strength.

The one I know will be there when possible, without becoming impatient.

She is one of the biggest blessings God has given me.

 

I don’t know where I would be without her.

Without her constant prayers. Without her love.

I am here today because God knew exactly what I needed when He gave me her.

I Don’t Know

I tend to “run away” or “hide” from God when I’m in need.

Some people look for Him when needed, at times I do the opposite.

I trust in Him, I suppose I get discouraged.

Maybe feel unworthy to ask for help.

Although I know He’s just waiting to hear from me.

Everyday I tell myself I have to be fine, almost as if to convince myself.

God has promised me too many things for them not to happen.

He’s not a liar. I attempt to calm myself with these promises.

But I’m still scared. God knows how my thoughts run when I’m on my own.

I used to find comfort after I cried.

An almost peaceful feeling would wash over me.

But now, now it causes me more worry.

I Stay Because I Love

When you love you want that person to be happy with or without you.

You don’t wish them harm or talk badly about them.

You don’t try to convince them to see things your way

and then rid them from your life when they don’t.

 

When you love, you hold on to the friendship as much as possible

because its better to have them as your friend than nothing at all.

 

When you’re easy to anger, hoping they get hurt so you could tell them

“I told you so,” constantly jealous, and unwilling to listen…

Could you really say its love?

My True Love

I asked God for a love so true,
One whose hug or kiss would calm my worries.
Someone that would replace
My loneliness with his love.

Someone special to give my life meaning.
And who has the ability to turn my
Sadness into joy with a few words or simple actions.
Someone who would wordlessly hug me
When I was down and who’d make me laugh
Even when all I wanted was to cry.

I have him. I love him. He loves me
And he tells me every single day.
Not because its what I want to hear,
Or to receive something in return,
But because his love is sincere.

I know I’m far from perfect
Yet he embraces me for who I am.
His love is one of a kind.

He’s my love.  He’s my son.
The one who captured my heart
From the moment I laid my eyes on him.
He’s my strength when I am weak
And the reason why I keep going
I have been blessed
with a love greater than I ever imagined.

Just Feel

*sigh* Just wrote this. Feb 5, 2011. Comment please? xD

Just Feel

Let my smile be more noticeable than the sadness in my eyes
And may my laugh keep me from crying.
Let me bug out and laugh all night in an attempt to forget it all.
I want to have fun and do as I wish,
To kiss just to kiss without needing another motive
And to say whatever without having to second guess myself.
No worries, no stress, I’ll let go and just feel.
I desire to feel alive even if I am dying on the inside.