I Stay Because I Love

When you love you want that person to be happy with or without you.

You don’t wish them harm or talk badly about them.

You don’t try to convince them to see things your way

and then rid them from your life when they don’t.

 

When you love, you hold on to the friendship as much as possible

because its better to have them as your friend than nothing at all.

 

When you’re easy to anger, hoping they get hurt so you could tell them

“I told you so,” constantly jealous, and unwilling to listen…

Could you really say its love?

My True Love

I asked God for a love so true,
One whose hug or kiss would calm my worries.
Someone that would replace
My loneliness with his love.

Someone special to give my life meaning.
And who has the ability to turn my
Sadness into joy with a few words or simple actions.
Someone who would wordlessly hug me
When I was down and who’d make me laugh
Even when all I wanted was to cry.

I have him. I love him. He loves me
And he tells me every single day.
Not because its what I want to hear,
Or to receive something in return,
But because his love is sincere.

I know I’m far from perfect
Yet he embraces me for who I am.
His love is one of a kind.

He’s my love.  He’s my son.
The one who captured my heart
From the moment I laid my eyes on him.
He’s my strength when I am weak
And the reason why I keep going
I have been blessed
with a love greater than I ever imagined.

Just Feel

*sigh* Just wrote this. Feb 5, 2011. Comment please? xD

Just Feel

Let my smile be more noticeable than the sadness in my eyes
And may my laugh keep me from crying.
Let me bug out and laugh all night in an attempt to forget it all.
I want to have fun and do as I wish,
To kiss just to kiss without needing another motive
And to say whatever without having to second guess myself.
No worries, no stress, I’ll let go and just feel.
I desire to feel alive even if I am dying on the inside.

Thoughts

Written on January 17, 2011. It’s difficult to come up with a title at times. Soon.

Thoughts

 

Have you ever had one of those days that you wake up

And nothing seems to make sense?

It feels like you’ve been living a life that is not your own.

You know what you need to do to make it all better

But your actions remain the same.

Instead of doing something, you ignore it all

And continue doing whatever it is that you do.

 

Nothing seems to be worth it anymore,

And you wonder why.

Countless questions race through your head

And it does nothing but intensify the pain you keep inside.

 

You love. However, you’re afraid it’s not enough.

You cannot seem to get yourself out of this rut.

You don’t know what or how to feel.

How to be. How to act.

Where are you? The real you?

 

You’re in there somewhere.

But this second-guessing isn’t you.

This indifference isn’t how you are.

 

Where is the happiness that pours off you?

The smile that would warm anyone’s cold heart?

Your eyes that showed nothing but love and understanding?

Your optimistic ways of seeing anything and everything.

Where have you been hiding?

 

It’s not a matter of not knowing what to do

But how to actually begin.

 

Breakthrough.

 

As the days, weeks, and months pass you by,

Nothing changes yet everything is different.

Time is not by your side.

 

Breakthrough.