I bought a new journal on Saturday. It has been over two years since I had written an entry and over four years since I have written often. I am hoping to catch up.
A few months ago I ripped and shredded all of my diaries/journals dating March 2004 and older. I kept the 2004 ones because that’s when I met my sons biological father and all. I stashed them away and totally forgot about it. A few days ago I was looking for something and then noticed the old diaries. Six of them to be exact. I then decided that they had to go. They must. I am all for looking back and seeing how I once was and what I once thought but I’m not going THAT far in the past. I’m done with the past. I’m a new person. The person I was back then died. Jesus washed away my sins and made me a new person.
Last night I thought I would re-write my old entries that include my son (when I found out I was pregnant, when I had him, etc) but then after writing the first entry that explained what I was planning to do, I decided that my new journal is NEW. I will write about NOW how I am as a Christian single mom. My first page looks messy! ugh. I’ll work on the rest so it will look good. Here it is so you can see how bad it is. I had to use two different pens because the first ran out. I dislike when that happens!
I’m only keeping the entries that I mentioned my son.
One of those black notebooks was dated Aug 1, 2004 to Aug 15, 2004. How can a 16yr old me write a whole notebooks worth in two weeks? Dramatic teens! ugh. That carebear notebook? completely gone. Don’t want any of those entries. ugh. They will be shredded in a few.
